Empty...

Today was a good day...excepting my cranky heart who bedridden me for couple of hours and my painful arm..
Actually the best part of my day was the rain....and the 2 a.m. smell of rain and the walk around the bloc and the walking barefoot through wet grass...How not to love rain if it’s the only thing that brings me peace and a smile on my face and tickles my nose and my ears both at the same time..
And I'm not suffering...I'm not even sad...I'm just resigned..He will not be who/how I want him to be .... and we will not have what we had...because sometimes it's just too late and I'm too empty inside to give a damn.


 Still..
Tommorow is another day.